one and only

oh em gee. tomorrow/ next 12 hours. I'm seriously nervous now. sweaty palms. pray for us will yaw. we are representing YOU guys u know :p kk what :d heehaw. but seriously. i wish and really really hope tomorrow will be our best performance that we ever made eh ;)) hopefully lady luck will be on our side laah tomorrow. badly needs to go Johor Bahru. i miss johor already :( its been 2 years since i've been there :p

neways tomorrow is also report card day. im so not excited. my dad is going there alone. thank god got choir comp. because my class teacher like to kasih kena me. but in a play play way. haha. oh well. sure not gonna be the first :| and last :p i wish lah. hhaha and hope :))) kay i have to get ready my stuff for tomorrow.

did you forget ?

seriously i don't want to live anymore oh. i don't like oh this feeling. everyone around me just change like in a snap! i don't like it oh. don't feel offended. its not u who I'm talking about here. this is the part where i don't feel i deserve or maybe U yourself call me what u called me before, "friend".

ahhhh! as emoness strikes. okaylah i wont handles peoples life. don't care bout them. i feel so lifeless la now. i don't feel like imagines stuff with my crush and stuff already =.= u know what i mean ? when u like someone u'll think good things bout him and stuff. well if u don't do that, don't proceed reading :p anyway, when i think of him i feel like puking already oh now. i cannot smile in a sudden when i remember your jokes like i used to do. now, when i think of u, all i can thing is your evilness towards me. why this feeling suddenly came? i don't even see the point of living.

by the way, i don't know if your mind had ever thought this but, do you know what are u doing at this earth ? u live, u grow, go old, and die ? whats the point. and that is not the end. u still have to go somewhere. if you go to heaven ? what will u do there? when u go to hell ? what will u do there ? die is not the end. this will never come to end. i have been thinking bout this allot. i keep on making up theories but it just don't work anymore like it used to.

people around me is changing o. i so dont like this to happen. i think I'm going to make another blog but private and no one can read it. at least i can let it out somewhere. its just so hurting keeping it inside. the feeling never fade want. :|

dad

i badly want to post a picture of my dad, but he really really really seriously really hate taking pictures. haha.
sokay dad, i still love u :) hope u enjoy our so-called-Chinese-cooking. hahahahaha :D

anyway, just now u go jalan with ninaaa :) we wanted to watch drag me to hell, but the earliest time it was showing was 3.20 pm ? so we decided to watch monster vs aliens. stupid la that movie. but i LOVEE si BOB hahahaha.

haha yeap. thats "it" :) hahahahaha. come lah i tell what happen :)
go cp, my sis ambil duit then go jumpa nina at starbucks. after that we went to the counter to buy ticket. so we trus masuk cinema. then masa habis suda, nina wanted to go waterfront but i told her nothing over there, so she take it back :p hahaha. then we jalan ? jalan ? and jalan? then i bwa nina go yogur berry. trus ada ni dua pengacau go stalk. HAHAH its our " kawan" actually. hahaa. then after that i get annoyed by them then i go cari my kakak. haaha. then i friend my sister to buy" converse bata" HAHA. then uhh. we buy nail polish ? ahaha. my sister is so good to me eh. i dont know why. we saling menyayang sdah i think. HAHAHAHA

chocolate moist cake with black chocolate cream on top

so yummy la :) my brother's girlfriend baked it or is it her mom ? i don't know but it comes from them. yum yum. the taste is just so rich! the cake is sweet-ish and the cream is bitter. it made me feel so sexy! :D

lets talk bahasa melayu sabah.
isuk sikul. sikul sia la. ko punya sa tia tau. tapi sikul sy bukan blajar jua tu. kami ber ko kum. tapi sa ada koir. sa mo pi nyanyi nyanyi. sa teda kerja ruma.


hahaa. enough la.

pork oh yo?

i LOVE pocoyo (: he is the blued shirt boy. haha. he is actually a baby :D i just cant resist loving him :))) i know i might be to old to watch this show, WHO CARES ? haha. seriously i still watch cartoon because ekiel watch it so i have to. especially tom and jerry, spongebob, fairy odd parents and ofcource ben10 :D

the sleepy feeling?

as our geography lesson was going on, man i was so sleepy. it's not my fault my geography teacher was so boring :p i was almost sleeping when i force my eye to open since i know she do not like her students to sleep. anyone want some free fats ? (: im just offering :D i think im falling in love oh. u know with who ? my school. why ? i dont know. i like being lame oh (: it just makes me so happy. and for all the people think he/she is cool kan, go on with ur life (: weeee~ haha

shit or shitty ?

i need some of your advice on my hair :) can bah kn :D if u dont want dont bother leavee.


is it this ? if you pick this, type " 001" in my cbox message :D


but if you hate 001, and u like this instead.type 002 :D

help me out will yah~

anyway, holiday is obviously ending, and gosh WHY?! WHY?! hmm. seriously, i know some of you might want the school open NOW. like N-O-W so u can meet up with your friends ? well, good for you then, the school is reopening soon -.-
but i think its a good thing too ? so i can save some money and maybe burn some fats up. so, yeah. there's a bad thing and good thing.

anyway, what i get from this 2 weeks holiday ?
~ gain weight. duh. 24/7 at home, what other things would u do than eat!
~ memorize advertisment songs :D
~ cooked for my family and they were pleased ! sedaap :) udang gala again that i cook. ahahha

copycats

seriously, i do know who are you out there. you might did not realise it. I've been using *it* long time ago. and what do you think ? I'm not using it anymore ? I'm still using it. hello -.- I'm just wondering u know, why on earth would u guys copy me. ask me what am i going to use and everything and where the same thing ? WTF. sorry if u guys hurt or something. but sometimes i just can take this. and everytime u made some jokes, why must u guys look at me ? i know u guys are "cool" people but, puh-lease. please stop copying ok. all the thing i know must u guys to know too ? i dont think so:) if i dont want to tell u its mean i dont want ok, dont force. i know u guys are my friends and friends are the one who u tell ur secrets and everything but sorry i havent trust u guys yet.

im setting my blog private. so anyone reads my blog please leave ur email in my cbox :) the one who dont leave their email, well, no need to read lor :D

my brain is lagging

its a bright new day, sunshine,
aren't you tired running in my mind.

this what i got from yesterday. i cant think of other words again. i cant even find the right melody. i think my brain is not working again. its like so rusty already. its was 9 days ago since i went to school. i did something bah yesterday to refresh my brain. but nah. it is still not working.

kids

while waiting my dad to pick me up in church after sunday school just now, there were a bunch of boys waiting for their parents too. technically one of them is my cousin. and omg they act like 7 years old but talk like 17! here's some of their conversation that i heard. hey i wasnt " curi curi dengar" they were so loud.

scene 1 : my cousin was like holding his chest ? wtf. because the boy take his stuff and throw throw it.haha anyway,

boy 1 : why are u holding my breast ? wait i dont have one. why are u holding my nenen.
wakakakak.
my cousin: wkakakakakakakakakakkaa. aiyo u dont like that lh. give me back my stuff.
boy 1 telling boy 2: *boy 2 name* u know * my cousin's name* hold my
nenenenennenenenenenennenenenen. wkakakaka

omg this. haha.

scene 2: boy 2 was tickle-ing boy 1. and here it goes

boy 1: ah pukima pukima pukima pukima u. stop it bah. so pukima o u. ( yes loudly in
the holy church. haha)
boy 2: whatever, u yang pukima!

scene 3: boy 1 holds my cousin DICK omg.

my cousin: what are u doing ?!
boy 1 : wkakakakakkakakakakaa.


kids nowdays.

jailed

deleted my old post. its so old, who would want to read it by the way. my tongue is so itchy. as if I'm allergic to the things i just ate :O don't bother , i did not like that food that much thou ;p

oh baby your so kind,
your so kind that i got blind.

a lot of relationship happen because of the kind-ness happened between them. by that, the girl don't even bother to judge his face as his kindness turn over his oh-so-not-hansom-face to her prince charming. how did that happen ? i have hell no idea. yes i created that words up there. it just suddenly popped out from my mind. i don't mind sharing (:

I'm just so curious, love is so-very-incredibly blind now days. is it a good thing? i think so, but not for the pretty ladies out there or the most charming guy u kind find. one of my friend said to me the other day " in a relationship, on of them must be so hot-pretty-cute and everything a person wants. on the other hand, the other person is the person who everyone been rejecting!" she went mad. (ha ha) because damn, she's pretty too. so she said again " in this case, my boyfriend gonna look hilarious! "

i tought of it, i must be lucky ;p im not that pretty girl who always gets the boy's attention. we'll just hope the fact is true :D seriously, to all the pretty ladies, girls, woman sorry ;)